I don’t want to write negative words and those words are more engrained in my heart.
But i also don’t want to ignore and nullify myself of feeling.
Does writing bring me relief or does it cause me to harbor? Does it bring me joy or remind me of the pain? Engrain the pain? Maybe it’s best if I just forget. Ignore. Move on. I am overflowing with emotion and not always the good kind. I am confused by who is at fault and who is to blame. My mind gets fuzzy when I’m anxious. I forget reasons why. I am hyper sensitive to my surroundings and therefore even less likely to keep my composure. Am I tired? Overwhelmed? Over it, completely? I’m trying to figure it out.
But more importantly, I’m trying to find a way to heal, remember, and move forward, positively.